Damage done

I get the quiet plodding done these days with less mental effort, an auto-pilot sort of thing. I like the how the bikes are feeling under me no matter which one I ride it feels right. Special treat today for the past three or four weeks of training-bear claw. Odd satisfaction to fall off the wagon that hard-a heroin addict getting a fix after being clean for 3 months, that's how I feel right now. Guilty and good. That fried doughy-goodness, loaded with cinnamon and jam, I might as well have a needle in my arm.