north sea

i feel weak, not in a lack of strength sort of way, but in a callow weak-willed way. also i'm starting to think of the cross program and perhaps not considering a race until july or august. stage races are supposed to be great for gaining form and getting the legs going really well for later events but what if you lack the prep for the race itself it kind of defeats before it starts. so, i ride because i love the biek and then if i get a chance to skate a cool park or go ride with friends without any plan of racing great! i think all of this is brought on by the consistently cold weather we have been having, cold isn't bad, but consistently wet is, i am so friggin' cold after nearly every ride. cold i'm accustomed to, wet sucks. enough whining. i still get great satisfaction out of riding in the shit, i get home wet and a little chilly and i can't get over how good i feel about it, i know everybody else is out there suffering in it too, but i feel special when i get home, tired and ready for a hot shower. the weather makes me stronger, not worrying about the bike or the snow, i know in november it will matter what i did, it does matter just not now, it's work for down the road. stay warm and dry today.