visit

so sore that it hurts to throw a leg over the bike, setting my body up to do one thing has its drawbacks if you aren't doing that one thing. riding the bike feeks ok, though i do feel stiff. the clouds are taking the place of the octopus. i can only hope that it gets better as the summer wears into fall. i keep eating but nothing happens, i only get nauseous. i think i'm shutting my system down, better has to happen before worse. haunting wake up to the old time happened today. it feels foreign not that i was ever really comfortable at 4.45, just more familiar. today it was like i was visitng an old house i lived in once. unlearning 4 years of early wakes is tough. getting onthe bike cleared my head, however simple it is i felt good. no power b/c of the shit in the legs but good anyway to turn my favorite pedal.