wind

better and better, suffered like i was on the north sea coast again in the cold wind. it really feels like that mid may and i need more layers, not less more. the wind doesn't make me want to stay home or cut the ride short, it just makes me work harder. i like that, i feel better about the ride if it's windy as hell, more work less time. better.

post

not too bad late in the day the snow stopped and the wind died a touch, got out for a decent turn. finished just before dark, taking the long way home made me realize how much i enjoy the longer steady rides, just past comfortable, rolling through one k after the other.

i want more

is it odd that we were at the aquarium yesterday and then went to eat sushi? unreal food made the day better. though it was my only meal of the day. i need more calories.

cold and damp

pics tonight, the way it's been northwest around here has made training tough and staying warm tougher. it sucks, i feel slower everyday. hard to get out and do work when you know the sky will open up any second. cold and damp. tomorrow is my chance to reset the table, long hard day to get out of the hole i've dug.

better

less last night, the rest was there for a while before going away for most of the night. better than nothing but not the best. clear night to wake from and ride out. i think a duo 24 hour race might happen this summer, a few stand out i'll see what is takes to get ready for that kind of effort. in may it sounds fun, what about the day before? more is better than less, i need to put the ghosts away and get thru the switch, better.

thys

not to be outdone by the two hours in the rain the ghosts weren't going to let me sleep last night. whether it was constant thoughts of time not spent or the continuous coughing, i got to savor the rainy ride in my head. 30 k with groceries on my back and then another block without into the wet wind made me feel like i might be doing it right. read it if you haven't a la flahute it makes sense, when you see it this way, if i had the time to do one of those rides, it would open everything up, a different level. new perspective, yeah, that's it. i don't think i saw many others out there, none that come to mind, makes me feel like i snuck one in under the radar. sure they might have a better ride schedule but i got mine done in the rain. i got more out of it, right?

better

it got better last night in that it didn't get worse, b had it too, no sleeps for the both of us. that's never a good way to spend the night. either way four hours of sleep at best. the sky had it's old glow today, inky and beautiful i made sure the picture didn't get lost on me. i hadn't seen it in a while, nice to know it's there.

report

read gwadzilla's race report from his sufferfest out at greenbriar in maryland. the is one of the best recounts of a race without boring time splits and too much minutiae, i could learn a ton from him. proper. follow the link on the left margin to race prose.

huh?

insomnia, it sucks when 4.45 isn't planning on coming any later. tuesday night worlds for the first time this year, managed to redirect the group up a steep climb they probably didn't want to go up. nobody wanted to say "nah, let's go north on flatter roads and sprint once for the town sign." instead it was a hard grind with the kids dictating the pace. the group shrunk to 4 after that and the rest were left to themselves going up a hill they would rather have avoided. good legs are good legs, not last up, not first either. probably avoid that ride, wasted too much waiting for more to show up, lost a good chunk sitting around waiting for stragglers, that won't happen again. rather chase to catch on than hangout making small talk and miss out on ridetime. keeping me awake right now, not the usual gnawing, new ones, bigger teeth that leave more of a mark than the other ones. i wish the octopus could wave a magic wand and make good change, keep it togther and make it better as it is. not the cryptic maze of parallel choices that lack any true solution, the ones that can solve the algorithm without a thought, tests that have the answers right next to the questions. rhythm that falls together, the pieces fit and there is a solution, not a postive or a negative but a real answer.

a good one

finally. a ride actually worth a snot. and i didn'r even have that much snot to shoot onto the roadside. the legs responded well to the work even after a few hours. clmbing up montezuma wasn't the effort i thought it would be. a few unexpected lung cookies, one little puke when one got stuck in my throat just before the end of the climb on zuma.